Cakap -Cakap on Sunday

Not my favorite day at all. But yeah..Bersyukur cause masih bernyawa dengan izin Allah SWT.

Kehidupan saya lately...

Agak stabil. Agak gembira. Agak J.K jugak (Jiwa Kacau)..mixed up.

Tadi ada buat sket blogwalking...but mostly..i dont do it at all :) Sorry guys. Bukan tak nak blogwalking..it's just..i dont feel like doing that.

Plus: I have another thing to complete 1st..haha.

What? I read. Read...and read. Bukan berkait dengan research tapinya. Tapi baca tentang agama. soalan biasa: Mao jadi alim kah? Ouh..no..no. Mau jadi lebih baek. Muslimah yang lebih baek dari sekarang :)

Since skrg dah ada partner dalam hal ni..tu yang lagi seronok. Dapat partner pon..yang tak ekstrem sangat...jadi  Alhamdullilah :)

A: Amek link ni..baca. best. Nak beli kitab .....

I: Trimas. Kitab? nak beli buku sejarah islam...

A: Arrrr...nanti ingat nak sambung belajar kat Madinah

I: HUH??? Nak ikot.

A: Nak belajar pe?

I: Nak wat ibadat la.

A: Saya nak stay sana. =.=

I: Ouh..oke.. -terdiam jap-

A: Haha...lambat lagi. If jadi..i'll let u know.

I: SIGN OFF...

Hahaha...marah ke saya di dalam perbualan ni? Ouh..tidak tidak.

Saya suka apa yang akan terjadi. =)

Sila la membimbing saya yer. Jangan garang sangat. Haha

P/s: Ini bukan seperti dulu. It's Fresh :)

Hurts

Sometimes, i don't feel like i want to talk. OR speak my mind.

I rather keep it..secretly in my "plaster" heart. - abaikan my serabai English. As i'm trying to improve my not-good-a-bit English.

This morning..as i sit in Library with my lovely roomate, my senpai...listening to Adele album (21)...i read. I read my usual-visit-blog : Iluvislam.com...then..messing around with Pakcik Google. I found one blog. One of the wut-ever girls i ever met. Yes, i admit they are..really gorgeous & stylish..

but..let's think a bit..Why they can be like that?

1. Because their descendant is RICH. They have MONEY. TONS of it. and do they mentioned buy their stuff at boutique such as ZARA when there is SALE? just one word..DANG. You guys think after SALE kat butik cam ZARA tu..korang dapat beli long skirt dengan harga rm15? Nonsense la this one. HUH.

2. Their family is sporting enough.

3. Let them be.

I dont know why i felt annoyed reading their pages..like..wut the hell they are doing? how come they got so much money for that? They working their a** off so much? OverTime?...Crap!!

It's a bad thing to "buruk sangka" on these type of girls..but common girls..

when you are so damn happy chilling out with ur friends like that..shopping while "SALE" la kan..

why dont u donate ur cheap-money to us? For us to survive our life here? haha.

That is one thing i learnt this morning. Yeah..people can be so mean sometimes, can be very sensitive too, can be over-excited, can be annoying, can be..anything they want.

As for me. i choose neutral. I afraid to laugh and be happy too much..cause i scare in the next day, i'm "paying" for it (doing all the opposite things from yesterday) T_T

Move on to another thing...there is one problem. I think i am in the "Inception" world now. I mean it.. I'm a day-dreamer. While i walking-my-lazy-legs around the campus...i think i saw someone. i saw him. Oke..maybe it is IMPOSSIBLE ...but i did stop..and staring at him. LONG enough..

I wait till he turn to face me...and..there he is. He is the anonymous...haha. and..definitely different from him. haha..a bit old. but from behind..he did make me stop to stare at him. haha. stoooooopido me!

Did i miss him? I don't know. Maybe a part of me..still don't believe the truth..that he already move on..without me. He let me falling behind. Thinking & writing about this..already hurts my heart. (apatah lagi..nak senyum kan..)...Not long after that incident..i realise..i did walk...leave my minds behind..sampai terlepas LIBRARY...ouh..oke..that clumsy me. haha. Me is kuat berangan. and JUMPS between my dreams. Before tido, i always think what " i am" in another 5 years. Where i'm gonna be? With who? ermp...let Allah decide it.

The last thing i want to blabber this tuesday day is...

i'm getting sick watching people.

Can i?

My heart barely feel anything anymore.

I dont feel like doing anything.

I just wish..i can go back...be with my family..or go anywhere...being a backpackers (hey those GIRLS above, donate some money for me to travel to Japan INSTEAD. DANG!!)

 haha...apa lah yang dimerepekkan hari-hari selasa ni.

It's just my inside conscious mind that talking. My physical? Isn't working today. haha.

As for my song today: Set Fire to The Rain  by Adele :)

-  beautiful lyrics. I love her - 

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you're here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught, must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time
The last time, oh, oh!

Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn

P/s: Kita BAKAU je!!! haha.

Idaman

Ermp..tengah duk berangan sorang-sorang...duk pikir..sejak dah single ni..macam mana lah jenis lelaki idaman saya eh?? haha...POYO kan...tapi..macam best..let's check it out :)

1. TINGGI...

Ini kes utama..haha...since me myself pon tinggi (dalam 165 cm)...so kalu boleh..mao la lelaki tinggi sket dari saya...or sama tinggi..hehe. (Contoh: Danny The Script ni...*gulp*)..haha :)

2. Not so fat & not so thin...

Macam mana tu?? haha...Just a normal guy.. Macam Danny jugak..Oke..Contoh yang sama lagi..but trust me..He is soooo IDEAL...haha :D

3. Specky!

Dari sekolah..suka sangat tengok a guy wear a spectacle...like..WOW. haha...they look different when wear it or without it...their eyes like..so small (sebab tak nampak pape kat depan)...chomel kan? heee :D..Paling suka tengok my MatsuJun wear Spec indeed of wear contacts...haha :P

4. Lefty Hand (not a must though...)

Ermp..Suka pada orang yang tangan kidal...sangat suka actually...huhu ><"

5. Love my family like i did

This one is an important factor. Already learnt my lesson before..so..this time...mao lebih better. Must love my parent..must be brave enough to be a friend to my brother. & can hang out with my lovely sisters. I dont ask to amik hati diaorang to the MAX..but at least..make them..leave a good impression to my choice. Really..i want a better one this time. AMIN! 

6. Addicted to JAPAN like i did

Adakah?? haha..Maybe so..but i dont ask him to be so maniac like i did...just enough if he say..he loves Japan too..and plan to visit it with me..or bring me there (Disneyland please??) haha :D

7. Agama

I want someone who can teach and bimbing me..Jaga Solat...agama dia lebih...tapi tak perlu ke tahap alim sebab saya pon tak la alim...Cuma manusia biasa..normal. Supaya lepas kawen..kami lebih dapat mendalami ilmu agama sesama...kan?? :)

8. Mix up with my friends

I love my friends. They are my precious. Hanging out with friends is one of my favorites. I would like him to mix up with my friends too..Not being TOO friendly..but at least..he can sit together..laugh together and have fun with me & my friends. This is...SO Important! ><#

9. Can Handle my P.M.S And Emo-ish period

I am a sensitive girl ever. But..not a GEDIK one...sensitive..cepat majuk..but senang je nak pujuk balik...if he knows the way. Ermp..i want one like this. 

10. No more long-distance relationship

Ni..ermp..bukan dapat predict pon..but really..i dont wish a long-distance relationship anymore..It's enough said..and hard to do..but..i think 6 years is enough for me..to stand up in long-distance relationship ni. SUCKS. My heart is not strong anymore... ><#

Boleh ke Dapat ni? Padan berangan je la ko ni cik Fadzlina oiiii :(

P/s: Moga dipermudahkan ALLAH. Amin

There's a reason for every smile :)

"U.S.S tu ada apa? macam Genting ke"

"Ala...amek la link ni..tengok sendiri..."

"=.=...haha. Saya da check dah semalam. Saje je nak suh awak check lagi. Ce cite sket..."

-Tersengih sorang-sorang...boleh macam tu???-

Dah lama tak senyum macam tu..*sigh*

Terima kasih ye awak. I find my smile back! :)

P/s: Masih ada yang sayang. hahaha

P.o.k.E

Issue yang menjadi-jadi sebab menda ni je. Apa? POKE.

haha. yer...satu application kat Facebook. yang digunakan semua orang (yeke?)..saya..for sure lah.

Ermp..dari poke ni bley jadi kawan kah? Maybe

Ermp..dari poke ni, bley kah kita senyum sorang-sorang? Maybe

Ermp..dari poke ni, bley pulak kita lupakan hati yang sakit? For SURE lah.

I dont know whether i'm doing the right thing, but one thing i love to realize is: I already leaved the one that i'm not supposed to be with... i cried (YES, and DAMN!)...All the things & stuff that remind me of him...really is killing me inside (belum masok tengok profile fb dia tiap-tiap hari...adei. such a stooopid stalker!)

And all i want  right now is: I want to be happy. & with this Poke thingy...please..heal me up!

It's quite awkward from the start...but i'll give a try. For the First Time.

P/s: I'm not using Mr. poke.  He's worth the try to move on. I'll wanna give my best shot.

12 :)

12 is my number. 

Now 12 June.

I'm counting my last months before i turn one year older on 12 July.

I don't wish and hope for anything this year.

Since I'm alone and 2011 seems gloomy for me up until now.

P/s: But i do want hadiah! haha. (pstt..smurfy! :P)

Isnin-Sicky.

Haha...bukan tak suka Isnin. Suka..Hari yang bagus untuk wat amalan2 sunat...

tapi..macam tu lah..bila isnin..nak wat kerja liat (dah la memang dah liat pon!!)

Then..banyak termenung before nak wat keja...( tak tau la pk apa kan T_T)

Pagi ni..pergi la hidupkan lesen kereta yang dah mati...

dalam hujan2...cuaca pon lembap je..mata tak mahu mengantok plak kan...adei!!

Jalan2...kaki maen seret2 je..punya la rajin kan? :P

berkerut muka bila orang2 tgk semacam..tapi ada saya kisah??? hahahaha *evil*

Then bley plak abg pej pos...nak amek cop jari je pon..pi pegang tangan plak kan. SENGAL..nak marah!! tapi terpaksa sabarkan aje...sbb dia pon nak wat kerja dia kut...

tapi itu semua tak perlu!!!

P/s: Cheer up please! :)

Muslimah & Putus Cinta

Tadi saya ke iluvislam.com >> one of my free-time reading web page.

Artikel latest on remaja & cinta is : Muslimah & Putus Cinta.

TERKENA. sangat la terkena pada hati & jiwa ni...adei...
Sini nak share sket petua utk atasi putus cinta ni:

TIPS MENGATASI PUTUS CINTA:

1. Kembali kepada-Nya – Banyakkan beribadah termasuk melakukan amalan sunat. Luangkanlah lebih masa dengan-Nya.

2. Sentiasa ingat jodoh itu ketentuan Allah -  anggap semua yang berlaku adalah ujian daripada Allah dan ada hikmah disebaliknya. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menurunkan ujian jika hamba-Nya tidak mampu untuk menanggungnya. Bersabarlah.

3. Meminta nasihat ibu bapa atau orang terdekat – Ibu bapa adalah yang terbaik dalam memberikan nasihat kerana sudah merasa asam garam kehidupan dan tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. Jika berasa malu atau takut untuk meminta nasihat daripada ibu bapa, sekurang-kurangnya berkongsilah masalah anda dengan orang yang terdekat dan rapat seperti kawan baik. Jangan pendamkan di dalam hati, nanti semakin merana diri.

4. Buang semua tentang si dia – Jika anda tidak sanggup membuang kenangan anda berdua, letaklah jauh dari sudut penglihatan anda supaya anda tidak berasa sedih dan ingin kembali dengannya. Buang nombor si dia dan segala mesej yang terdapat dalam telefon bimbit anda.  >> I''m doing this right now!!!

5. Sibukkan diri – Lakukan apa sahaja kerja yang baik dalam kehidupan seharian anda supaya anda tidak terlalu memikirkannya. Sekiranya ada aktiviti, libatkan diri. Dengan itu boleh mengurangkan kesedihan yang melanda.

6. Muhasabah diri – Jangan ikutkan perasaan, terimalah hakikat bahawa dirinya bukan untuk anda. Ada yang lebih baik.

7. Berkawan dengan ramai orang – Janganlah kerana putus cinta anda tidak mahu bergaul. Namun, kawal pergaulan anda sebagai seorang muslimah. Menambah kenalan adalah baik dalam mengukuhkan ukhwah. Di samping itu anda akan berasa kesedihan putus cinta itu akan hilang sedikit demi sedikit.

Dengan perkongsian ini, diharapkan serba sedikit dapat membantu muslimah sekalian yang mungkin menghadapi masalah putus cinta. Sekali lagi diingatkan, bercinta tanpa ikatan yang sah adalah HARAM. Kesannya adalah seperti ini, PUTUS CINTA. Akhirnya diri sendiri yang merana.

Ayuh muslimah! Bangkitlah dengan kekuatan dirimu. Cinta manusia bukanlah segalanya, tetapi cinta kepada Allah cinta yang hakiki. Sampai suatu ketika, dengan adanya cinta terhadap-Nya, semoga Dia akan menjodohkanmu dengan lelaki yang mencintaimu untuk mendapat keredhaan-Nya.

Sememangnya jodoh itu ketentuan Ilahi, tetapi kita pernah mendengar bahawa peluang tidak datang bergolek, begitu juga dengan jodoh. Berdoa juga adalah satu usaha, jadi berdoalah kepada-Nya moga dipertemukan dengan lelaki yang baik dan soleh. Ingat! Lelaki yang baik adalah untuk perempuan yang baik, bukannya lelaki yang hensem untuk perempuan yang cantik dan sebaliknya.

Jangan berasa rendah diri, ingatlah bahawa segala yang diciptakan Tuhan adalah cantik. Jika inginkan jodoh yang baik, perbaikilah diri anda, muhasabahlah diri, hentikan perkara yang dilarang-Nya dan kerjakan segala perintah-Nya selagi pintu taubat masih terbuka luas. Di sini, sekadar ingin mengutarakan pendapat dan berkongsi tips kepada para muslimah, jangan jadikan kegagalan cinta sebagai penamat hidup anda. Teruskanlah berusaha kerana dirimu begitu berharga.

Source & Credit: iluvislam.com :)

P/s: Amin..Artikel ni..menenangkan saya :)

Nampak u...

Bila nampak u...i am shaking so much.

Although just via net...it already chill my nerves so much.

My hands numb. and i feel the feelings i kept for u all these times.

Ya Allah..kenapa. 

Andai dia bukan untukku..kenapa mesti ada dia kembali.

My heart beat so much..

but this time..i wont say a word to u anymore.

P/s: i'm stoooopid. cause of you.

Blemish-Face!

Muka ....Penjagaan muka..adoyai..pening la..

Muka tak cerah...gelap je..

and banyak pimples dah lately...

walaupon jaga bagai nak rak...

tensen.

Macam2 produk dah cuba.

Lately...saya try Tea Tree product dari Body-Shop...

Macam okay je...dah tak oily sangat...
tapi still...gelap la muka...

Sedih lah. Bukan nak chantek gila macam artis...cuma mau muka bersih sket...cerah sket.

*nanti kena gi PLKN...terbakor jugak muka ni!!!!!!!!!*

Tensen!

*my sister lagi chantek nih. Adoi!!!!!*

P/s: Mao Muka bersih macam Cheryl Samad!

Go-Gatsu

It's May..

and..Nothing much changed :)

It's me..the study, friends...etc2 :)

Guess 2011 just passed by so quick ne! 

Cheer up! :)

p/s: Life must go on..yesterday is history..future is..bright! :)

Awesomeeeeee :)

you make it awesome.

thanks!

P/s: u are my Barney Stinson! :)

Whap-dup!

I've got effected by HIMYM lately..haha.

who i wanna be? Robin sher...(susah nak eja)..haha...But robin is Cool.

even though...Lily-pad pon..terror! haha..

Nothing much to write...

lately a bit of tight schedule with my Japanese Class & My thesis writing.

i started my writing ady??? unbelievable ne...

Ermp..my life is getting better...

i had a wonderful moments lately. 

i even Watched GANTZ!!!! Nino & Matsuken...Kakkoi deshou!!!!

They are....so...amazing...and..i think i started to like MatsuKen (Right) too...he's cool...and smart...and tall..and..SUGOI...and yea...he is the one who play L in Death Note! :)

I want to finish up my study asap..and..be with family...asap...

and..my biggest wishlist is...to..be love by someone. ^_^

Guys..breakup is just your new beginning of life. Cheer up and grown up..cause..who knows in future u will meet someone that truly wants you!! :)

TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS - BRUNO MARS!

i've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and i've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets

so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins
today my life begins..

P/s: I love everything i had for now! :)

Crushy-O-Time :)

Okay...this is weird.

At first i thought maybe it is a normal thingy to have a crush...or a 2-days fall to this guy...

Due to my break-up last few months...this is...SO not normal. Easily fall for a guy. But..yes..i did. And make it more obvious.....i am sooo INTO him! ^_^
Haha...no wonder..because..i'm having my hard times..lately. i cried easily...i am so space out! and..there he comes!
for those who keep accompanied me...not let me being alone...thanks.

My rumate: you're the best.

Kak anim: Awak kakak yang terbaek saya ada!! :)

Smurf: Thanks best friend!

Buz: My Machine Laughter!

Fido: My Grumpy Grinch! :P

Family: Always...Love!

Seriously..both of us..having our most hard times now. and make it more complicated..i don't know who am i for him. A friend? always be!
Well..i think..this is just a crush. cause..i cant LOVE anymore. my heart fall to pieces..i'm heartbroken...

a break-up makes me...so fragile & weak...

Losing a first love..is the hardest thing i ever felt...in my life.
Of course...i wont forgot it...

And this crush...i'm so sure...it's not a re-bound thingy...cause..it has been dragged for too long..and trust me..he crushed my heart few times...because..he doesn't have the same feelings for me.. :(

*hey..i'm not forcing you...i just thought maybe..we both can give ourselves a try..maybe...but..it's not now..not now..cause my heart still not in the good condition ....yet*

and i'm still not moving on...from my past.

Crush- Mandy Moore (2001)

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i fell
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

P/s: I'm not ready yet! that's the truth. i'm scare!

March!

It's already March...

two months passed in 2011. 

what did i do in the past 2 months?

Nothing

except: my proposal presentation (January)..a breakups (February) & March??...Who knows??

well...life must go on...

and me myself..enjoying..all what i have been doing in the last two months. even the events is memorable, hurtful, excited, shameless,...Who cares??? it's just me..being Me

Yeah..i rarely write anymore...because i still try to figure out.."who am i...what i want to be..why i am still doing the same thing for 25 years?"...blah..blah...
i think i already move on to the new phase in my life. i'm being ADULT. at least...i'm trying to. 
and..be happy with myself. 
and...me also in DIET mode lately. need to keep the shape up babes. 
i want to look..ordinary..but HOT. (damn..what is HOT is all about?)  haha. 
But..that's is what i'm hunting for...at least..right now.! :)

Love? Ouh no! It's complicated. Dont ask Me. 

Study? Ouh...Hell no. I wish i can finish it ASAP.

Buddies? Ouh..Cool. always! :)

Crushes? Ouh..If only.No options

P/s: We must LOVE ourselves 1st oke!

Ermp..

Happy after receiving Arashi DVD and GANTZ badges..thanks to Cherry Blossom!

Hehe...

akhir-akhir ni..jarang sangat mao update blog...or blogwalking blog kengkawan..takde mood ke apa??

haha...no lah..nothing special to update about me. 

Ouh..kecuali..sudah kembali SINGLE after 5 years. Ouh No! That is so not appropriate to say here...tapi..nak cakap jugak!

Mula-mula..memang sangat DOWN...tapi lately..much better. Rahsia? 

BUSY kan diri dengan mende2 lagi penting dari CHENTA!...berkesan oke!

Skrg..mode lebe kepada...mau KURUS...DIET..etc! haha...Mao CHANTEK la...usia pon dah 25 taun kan..hehe (tersalah mention)....

Dont want to look back anymore!!! :)

P/s: Thanks for those who keep supporting me. Love u Guys! :)

Single Life Planning

• Enjoying her life
• Appreciate time with friends
• Sit & watch & scream to Arashi all day!
• Watching Arashi bangumi 24 hrs
• Finishing her study in South & go back for good
• Stay with Single status until she meet the right one for her
• Going out with Lots of guys (Duh...this one is LAME!) haha
• Reading lots
• Clear up things
• Planning for future
• Be with Family as many as possible
• And Sober Up!!!

Trust me...I'll slowly catch up things lately. i don't cried anymore. and...i love my life...even though it still messed up!! haha... 

Now i need to arrange my schedule back...and stop all these crappies. 

Guess I'm ready to move on to my new chapter. 

Bye-bye love. 

Let's us be happy with what we have for now. ^_^

P/s: Fido Dido Mode. Damn!

Quote of the day!

P/s: Love it!

Tensen!

Bley pulak nak rosak sekarang kan..time saya takde duit...time saya sangat la bajet duit...adoyai kamooo.

saya sangat suka pada kamu

tak kisah la kamu dah luka, da cacat sket...

tetap chenta abes...since kamu jenis yang flippo...mcm my MJ pakai kan...

tapi kenapakah mau rosak SKRG!!! huhu

Geram

Maybe it's time to say goodbye to u...

and..reminds myself..second hand things...are sometimes..troublesome!!

After this...maybe BB...ADOIYAI!!! mao mati pakai BB? haha...

Ntah la...mao cari yg simple simple jelah kut..leh sms & call..sudah!

p/s: Sudah kecewa dengan kamoooo >_<"

Bahagia

Happiness...the things that hard to get..and hard to keep with us for a long time...

Yeah..Maybe we'll wait for years...for months and maybe even for a decades...just to get this one word..

the true meaning of it..

the real part of it...it lies with a beautiful meaning...

up until now..this is the only thing that i still searched for whole years. and now, as i stand as 2 decades and a half young girl...i realize something...to get it..i need to chase it..because it doesn't wait for me..

I will run for it now...and..sorry if there is people who cant catch up with the speed i running...because..all i want..is just the happiness...not sadness.

[Trying to make it work but man these times are hard]

[We're smiling but we're close to tears]

[I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds
I don't know how much more love, this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Whoooooaa uuuh where their leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds, where their leaving, the scars you're keeping]

to tell the truth...i'm tired. and..maybe someday..i'll need a breakout. give me freedom...and maybe i can go to through the whole world..searching some space for me..to smile, to laugh, to shout, and die in happiness...

together with the people i love...the things i adored, the friends that never stops give me morale supports!

this is my feelings right now..even though i'm surrounded with people i'm familiar with...but my heart is EMPTY. i felt NOTHING. and i still SEARCHING for HAPPINESS.

P/s: Bleeding Love!