Your Tribute...

I knew u gone. I lost all of u. 
But still...I still thinking that you are here. beside me..laughing with me. Asking the question with me. Sit and eat the meatballs in front of me. Make a joke to me. Buying me ice-cream..Drive me home safely. Shopping with me. Give me the pillow to hug when i'm sad. 

It's like..you never leave...

How can i should let you leave...when you appeared in my mind every morning i wake up..and just before i sleep..it's you i think about. People may say...I'm CRAZY...but..i didnt ask for this. Not once i want u to hurt me so deeply. 

U stay away from me. I figure out the reason why. Because u dont want me to stuck with you. I got it.

Dear u, teach me how i should forget all these things?

- Your musics that u suggested to me...and i kept playing it because ur musics suit mine?

- Your sweet part. Maybe u already stated that i'm not your choice..but why u kept my stuff with you? 

I dont know. I dont know why i can act like this when i'm with you. OR remember you.

I never forget you. Not even once. Even if i say i did...i just love the way i lie to myself. That's it. 

It doesn't matter i can't have you..because i dont hope or want it anymore. Just i remember this little boy that i always used to watch in class. The boy that write and lead the class...the boy-scout that so "chomel" when he shout out in class..and the boy that dance with another partner instead of me. HAHA. I just missed all of those little boy. 

-at least...those memories make me smile- :)

This is your tribute. If i find someone in future..i'll make sure i SHOW OFF to you. and make him PUNCH you hard at your bulgy stomach. haha.

you are..a GOING GOING GONE guy. Bakaa!!!!Sayonara!!!

P/s: I am Not sad because of you anymore. I promise i live my day BETTER without you :)

Menarik dari Iluvislam.com :)

P/s: Menarik kan? :)

I want this kind of guy...can i??

Oke...This proposal...is SO DAMN SWEETTT!!!!!!!!!

Omaigod....Terkejot. Suprise...and it's like Fantasy.

Sangat Taching...Saya pon nanges...Siot!!!

huhu...

Ouh....So sweet.

Mao lelaki macam ni (Ada ke???) ....

So Lovely. i want one sweet like this.

Source: Blogserius! :)

P/s: Just...so damn Lovely!!!!

Science & Faith & Me

Ermp...semalam...hati sangat saket. lagi tengok..lagi saket. memang...orang cakap saya ni degil. tapi itu lah..bila tak dapat apa yang kita nak..macam ni jadinya. saket hati..saket kepala..menanges..etc2..

menanges. yeah..bukan saya minta untuk nanges sebab dia. if ada obat untuk hilangkan ingatan tentang dia..saya buat. sungguh!!

tapi macam skrg..macam menda tak setel. he hang me up. and we both stay in silence. i just want a word from him. which up until now..he still cant decide.

Trust me..I'm hurt so damn much inside.

I don't want to be like this.

I don't want to put hope on him.. i just want to settle this thing up.

A new video released by The Script. My fav band and suggested by him. I'm so influenced by his choice of music. like he always said "my choice of music always good kan :)"...Ya Allah..u are right!!!! >_<

I miss my mengadu machine 

I miss my danny

I miss my grumpy gachapin.

& it's all my fault. Because you're not mine..she is so lucky to be loved by you.

Tried to break her to a science
In an act of good defiance
I broke her heart

There's a pull up on her theories
There's a watch her growing weary
I broke her heart

Having heavy conversations
About the frivolous constellations of our souls, oh
We're just trying to find some meaning
In the things that we believe in
But we got some ways to go

Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that just knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours

It's the way we feel, yeah, this is real
It's the way we feel, yeah, this is real

I tried pushing evolution
As the obvious conclusion of the start
But it was all my own amusement
Saying love was an illusion of a hopeless heart

Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours

It's the way we feel, yeah, this is real
It's the way we feel, yeah, this is real

Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that just knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours

It's the way we feel, yeah, this is real
It's the way we feel, yeah, this is real

P/s: Love is really an illusion of a hopeless heart!

Be Strong!

Be strong FADZLINA ^_^

Let Allah decide it for you.

InsyaAllah..He has a beautiful plan for u instead in future.

Kore kara mo...let's be Happy. 

P/s: Bley ke menipu diri sendiri???

End of May. End of Story..

Orang kata...perkara masa kecik..jangan di bawa sampai ke dewasa. Tapi sebagai manusia...Saya DEGIL.

Orang kata..apabila berkawan itu, kita kena lah jujur. jangan berlebihan. Tapi selaku perempuan...Saya EMOSI.

Orang kata...jangan la terlampau berharap..pada perkara yang tidak pasti. Tapi sebagai seorang peminat...Saya INGKAR.

Apabila semua yang orang kata..saya tak dengar. maka terjadi lah ...PERPISAHAN. Menyakitkan..Sungguh.

PENANTIAN...sangat menyiksakan jiwa. PEDIH.

Maka...saya perlu menamatkan nya ...dan ia telah ditamatkan..dengan penuh KERELAAN hati saya...and maybe dia..pon tak perasan KEWUJUDAN perasaan saya ni...

Dengar lagu kat bawah ni..lagi pilu jadinya...ada betulnya cakap ADELE!

"Tired"
Hold my hand while you cut me down
It had only just begun but now its over now
And your in the heat of moments with your heart playing up cold
I'm between the middle watching hastiness unfold
In my eyes your were smiling in the spotlight dancing with the night
The night
Fell off your mind

I'm tired of trying
Your teasing ain't enough
Fed up of biding your time
When I don't get nothing back
And for what, and for what, and for what
When I don't get nothing back
Boy I'm tired

Where'd you go when you stay behind
I looked up and inside down and outside only to find
A double taking punching hard and laughing at my smile
I get closer you obviously prefer her

[Chorus:]
I'm tired of trying
Your teasing ain't enough
Fed up of biding your time
When I don't get nothing back
And for what, and for what, and for what
When I don't get nothing back
Boy I'm tired of trying
Your teasing ain't enough
Fed up of biding your time
When I don't get nothing back
And for what, and for what, and for what
When I don't get nothing back
Boy I'm tired

[instrumental]

(I should have known)

Never mind said your open arms
I couldn't help believe the trick me back into them

[Chorus]

[instrumental]

P/s: Selamat Tinggal!

Love Language.

i love this one..so nice..so simple...

and..it just happened. 

P/s: Im waiting for my Magic Man :)

What is the difference??

We talked

We texting

We laughed

We Smiled

"i love her: NO....i like her: a million YES" 

What the difference between that two words??????

What the hell was that.
i didnt mad at you..of the feelings u had for her...but..
if u ever going back to her...u really screwed up there.
u messed up.

u want me to trust u again? 

If that happen...it's not just trust...but u will never ever see me again. 

No more me. 

and no more us. 

i pray for the day u realize...there is a girl who really walking in your way now..and forever.
Hey...i think i have feelings for you. Again! T_T

P/s: Dont go back to her. Please.

Hitori!

Ermp..

I am alone..sometimes, i thought there is someone for me..that i dont even realize he was outside there..waiting for me.

But..all these time..i keep waiting at the junction..i guess...that's only my imagination. cause all i saw was a shadow of him...not himself.

I pray so much for the miracle.

i need a partner. someone that i can talk to...spend time with..share my japanese madness with...share my study life hectic with...

It's just difficult to handle all this thing on my own..

and yea...i do have my best-est friends with me..the supportive family..but..it wasnt enough...

(maybe ini la lumrah manusia...tak pernah puas dengan apa yang dia ada...MasyaAllah...)

I never give up on waiting for the right one to come :) and when he comes...i want he to realize..I'm worth on everything he ever want to be with! :)

Realize - Colbie Caillat

V1: Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

C: If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V2: Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

C: If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V3: It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

C: If you just realize what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
realize, realize

P/s: Didn't i told u...i wait! :)

Bila.....!

Bila ...tak perlu cakap pape..

Bila...hanya teruskan apa yang dilakukan bersama seharian

Bila..ada di mana kita perlukan dia...

Bila...dia ingatkan tentang kepentingan masa depan 

Bila....dia push kita untuk terus berusaha and berjaya

Bila...kita menangis...dan dia membuat kita senyum kembali

Bila...dia tahu segalanya tentang kita

Bila...Ada DIA! :)

P/s: Thanks so much! :)

I wanna say " I Do" & dance with u! :)

It's always been about me myself and I

If all relationships were nothing but a waste of time

I never wanted to be anybody's other half

I was happy sayin our love wouldn't last

That was the only way I knew til I met you

You make we wanna say

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Yeah, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I can live without it, I can let it go

Ooh, what did I get myself into

You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Tell me is it only me

Do you feel the same?

You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games

I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down

You can trust I never felt it like I feel it now

Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let it go

Wooh Can I get myself into

You make we wanna say

Me a family, a house a family

Ooh, can we be a family?

And when I'm 80 years old and sittin next to you.

And when we remember when we said

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let us go

Just look at what we got ourselves into

You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Love you

Crushy-O-Time :)

Okay...this is weird.

At first i thought maybe it is a normal thingy to have a crush...or a 2-days fall to this guy...

Due to my break-up last few months...this is...SO not normal. Easily fall for a guy. But..yes..i did. And make it more obvious.....i am sooo INTO him! ^_^
Haha...no wonder..because..i'm having my hard times..lately. i cried easily...i am so space out! and..there he comes!
for those who keep accompanied me...not let me being alone...thanks.

My rumate: you're the best.

Kak anim: Awak kakak yang terbaek saya ada!! :)

Smurf: Thanks best friend!

Buz: My Machine Laughter!

Fido: My Grumpy Grinch! :P

Family: Always...Love!

Seriously..both of us..having our most hard times now. and make it more complicated..i don't know who am i for him. A friend? always be!
Well..i think..this is just a crush. cause..i cant LOVE anymore. my heart fall to pieces..i'm heartbroken...

a break-up makes me...so fragile & weak...

Losing a first love..is the hardest thing i ever felt...in my life.
Of course...i wont forgot it...

And this crush...i'm so sure...it's not a re-bound thingy...cause..it has been dragged for too long..and trust me..he crushed my heart few times...because..he doesn't have the same feelings for me.. :(

*hey..i'm not forcing you...i just thought maybe..we both can give ourselves a try..maybe...but..it's not now..not now..cause my heart still not in the good condition ....yet*

and i'm still not moving on...from my past.

Crush- Mandy Moore (2001)

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i fell
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

P/s: I'm not ready yet! that's the truth. i'm scare!

I'm gonne leave it behind...

all those 5 years with you...

it's not a goodbyes...but just a move on to new life..

life without you...without someone i can depends to...

someone that hear my craps...someone that hear my problems...and share my tears..

someone who i love to spend time with...someone who is so...nice to me..

if that is the reasons...why should i let u go??

why should we stop US?

Yea...our path have change...u & i trying the new outside world...

without rely on each other...

it's been a week..and there is no one day..without tears coming out from my eyes...

i cried when i miss you...i sleep with our memories...

and hey...i'll always cherish our time together...

i always remember you...and appreciate all that we built together...5 years...

it's not like 5 months...

and..thanks...thanks so much for the time & memories ...

To you...if u read this...

i want u to know...that u always that special place in my heart. no matter where you are...and what we will be in future...

May Allah lead us to the right path after this 

P/s: a Goodbye note for a lover!

After 5 years!

I traveled far along with you
We walked the world and together grew
It will be strange being without you

You gave me strength and helped me grow
But now it's time to be on my own
I hope you know this was difficult
Oh

A part of you is a part of me and will always be

So hold your head high
It's so hard to say, "Goodbye"
I just have to take this chance
I hope you understand

We'll go on our separate ways
It may be hard but I'm not afraid
I think it's good life makes us change
Oh

So don't be sad
The best is yet to come
But until it does

Just hold your head high
It's so hard to say, "Goodbye"
I just have to take this chance
I hope you understand

So hold your head high
It's so hard to say, "Goodbye"
I just have to take this chance
I hope you understand

I won't forget those times
(Won't forget those times)
I won't forget those feelings
(Won't forget those feelings)
So don't forget I'm going to see you again

So hold your head high
It's so hard to say, "Goodbye"
I just have to take this chance
I hope you understand

So hold your head high
It's so hard to say, "Goodbye"
I just have to take this chance
I hope you understand

P/s: Goodbye Love!

I.T

Appreciate IT

Cherish IT

Be Happy with IT

Live a life with IT

Endure IT

Smile with IT

Crying hard when u loose IT

Spend time with IT

Fall for Anything with IT

Break even when something happened with IT

Totally said "I'm Yours" when IT needs you

None the Wiser between you & IT

& it's all like For The First Time!

Yeah...hope it always stuck into my head like this. always.

P/s: What's L is all about!

One month older

 

It's been one month older.

And...simply said..it's still be US.

In future...i always want us to be TOGETHER.

FOREVER

P/s: Benci dengan result AJL. huh!

It's u.

As long as i am with you...
i feel i dont need to think anything else...
As long as u are here with me...
i feel like i am the most luckiest person in the world


And..maybe our path is not as easy as others...but..as long as u stay with me...it should be...OKAY.
and i do have the perfect moments with you...
the things that i want to keep it forever is..YOU & ME :)

P/s: Thanks a bunch. that's really make me..LOVE u more! :P

Kenapa Kamoo?

Kenapa ek? ..hehe...

Kadang2 kitaorang bergaduh macam pe..tapi last2..jumpa ..keadaan jadi okay balik..macam tak gaduh.
sebab kami Jauh ke? Maybe SO...it felt so LONG for us...to end up together...but up until now..no one can treat me as well as he did. he knew me so well i think...after 6 years. haha.
But sumtimes...i do hate him. mad at him like crazy. tapi ntah la..dapat bertahan until now..and i still cannot find one reason to leave him behind...
There is few things i like him..personally:

- Dia sangat utamakan SOLAT ..dia selalu ingatkan saya ni..haha..Alhamdulillah

- Dia tak terlampau sosial. (this can be advantage & dis-advantage). Advantage: saya rase selamat.    Disadvantage: Susah dia mahu bercampur dgn my friends yang gila2 semua :)

- Dia tak pernah...TINGGI kan suara bila kitaorang gaduh. biasanya..if dia tak puas hati..dia DIAM all the time..and bila dia CALM DOWN, baru dia explain nape dia gitu. (Time nak tunggu dia CALM, usually..saya da risau menangis T_T) 

- Dia biasanye akan msg saya dulu setiap hari..hehe. kadang-kadang..ada jugak saya msg..tapi..jarang la :P

- Dia tak BERKIRA dengan saya..walau apa pon kitaorang buat..

- Dia jarang say NO if saya ajak beli/ kuar sesama..hehe. even dia penat..dia melayan jugak!

- He knows that i'm so much in love with JAPAN & ARASHI

Dan banyak lagi la...bukan untuk bacaan umum :P hehe
He is my first LOVE.
I dont know if i could still LOVE someone else after him..except that i kept falling for ARASHI :P

i hope this LOVE can bring us to Marriage...still long way to talk about this..but..this is what i hope for US :)


P/s: I admit...ILYTM! :)

U & Me...hehe

Awak....ye..Awak...

hehe...maen tunjuk2 pulak kan...Gomenasai!!
Cuma nak cakap...
Dah 5 tahun 10 bulan dah ni!! :P
Bila nak "upgrade"...hehe

*ouh...saya suka berangan!!*

P/s: Pray for the best for us! :)

suke-suke!!! :P

p/s: Tengah wat kerja...mengantok...jadi..ni hasil sampingan!!! :)

Type of Guy

i think i fall for this type of guy.

quiet, cool, "matsujun-ish" type, and nerdy??

is it? 

haha...

i dont need a guy..to tell me what should i do..and shout to me. i hate when guys "shouting" at me. macam dia tak hormat saya. (ni blom kawen lagi tau...da kawen...dia bleh lempang saya kut..huh!)...

saya suka lelaki macam...SHO. haha. smart & bakaa at the same time. he can make me smile with his baka-ness. he is so..multitask person...but very considerate ne! :)

saya senang bersama lelaki macam OHNO. bila saya sedih, dia akan menyanyi, menari, and bawa saya gi memancing. & maybe dia akan buat saya sangat close dengan his mum..cause dia sangat sayang mak dia!

saya terhibur dengan lelaki macam AIBA. dia kelakar. and also Bakaa. dia sayang haiwan..(even saya tak suka sangat haiwan...hoho)..and dia sentiasa full dengan idea baru. he is the one who cheer up the atmosphere. this kind of guy...is good ne! :)

saya maybe..akan rasa susah bersama lelaki macam NINOMIYA. since..dia..cute so much, and he is workaholic. and he is sumtimes..can be so laser!! huh!..not for me ne...hehe. but..i love his magic! :)

saya akan sangat teruja dengan lelaki macam MATSUMOTO JUN. bukan sebab saya choose dia as my favorites in arashi...but he is just...being him. sarcastic, egois, bajet macho, stylish, take a very good care at his health, he is the one who cares about people around him (the most), and he smile only at the appropriate moments.+++ (etc)..hahaha...

in a simple word...it's just him! haha...

but..for a mean time..i appreciate the guy who always be there for me..thanks for endure me (and please do so..until...FOREVER!...hehe)..

p/s: Who knows our future rite??