Remain silence

I don't feel to talk at all lately. i did talk..tapi tak banyak...cakap sket je..sudah.
Bila tidor...tidor awal. Mimpi bukan-bukan. ermp.
Ntah nak apa ntah.
Nak balik RUMAHHHHHH =.=
Tapi bertangguh. sebab? BERSIH. but i dont blame the BERSIH thingy...cuma..efek pada orang ramai.
Well..bravo la apa nak jadi nanti. lantak. yang penting...saya nak balik umah next week!! huh!

I dont talk. much. shaberu janai. 

Pada orang di sekeliling. sorry. :)

P/s: Ermp. Offline.

Mo-esday T_T

Hari Isnin...walaupon bukan hari yang indah seperti Jumaat..

tapi..ini hari berjumpa supervisor ku sayang! :)

Punya la nebes..sampai sakit perut (padahal sebab laen je pon..haha)

Masok lepak dengan dia sejam..macam-macam input dia bagi...

Jalan yang stuck..dia bukakan jalan..bagi idea...

Tunjuk planning dia untuk my research

Suruh tukar ayat sket..tukar significance research sket

Borak-borak tentang viva master sket...

Last-last dia bagi ayat best:

"Kita kena dapat G.O.T (Grad On Time) tu ina...jangan leka. If terlebih masa..nanti "org atas" tanya saya pulak..rajin sket..kan research ni..if nak senang...buatla taught Course..."...

Adoyai boss...bley plak "taching" kan saya!!

Sebenarnya...ada betulnya apa dia cakap. Buat Master ni..tak sama dengan undergrad dulu...kena adjust masa betul-betul...kena ada planning...tapi saya? HANCUSS!!! =.=

Agak menyesal di situ..tapi tu la..masa da lepas..mana bley ulang..

lepas ni..da fix masa untuk jumpa dia every 2 weeks. MUST...dia cakap bukan dia nak kawal saya..tapi just nak monitor my works..(since..da bagitau dia..i want to grad before Feb 2012)..Hopefully..Allah guide my heart...supaya tak LAGHA sangat..huhu =.=#

I dont have enough time. and i do feel sad about it...

*lebih kurang gini la my sketch-book after jumpa him* T_T

P/s: I'm having Mo-esday!

Cakap -Cakap on Sunday

Not my favorite day at all. But yeah..Bersyukur cause masih bernyawa dengan izin Allah SWT.

Kehidupan saya lately...

Agak stabil. Agak gembira. Agak J.K jugak (Jiwa Kacau)..mixed up.

Tadi ada buat sket blogwalking...but mostly..i dont do it at all :) Sorry guys. Bukan tak nak blogwalking..it's just..i dont feel like doing that.

Plus: I have another thing to complete 1st..haha.

What? I read. Read...and read. Bukan berkait dengan research tapinya. Tapi baca tentang agama. soalan biasa: Mao jadi alim kah? Ouh..no..no. Mau jadi lebih baek. Muslimah yang lebih baek dari sekarang :)

Since skrg dah ada partner dalam hal ni..tu yang lagi seronok. Dapat partner pon..yang tak ekstrem sangat...jadi  Alhamdullilah :)

A: Amek link ni..baca. best. Nak beli kitab .....

I: Trimas. Kitab? nak beli buku sejarah islam...

A: Arrrr...nanti ingat nak sambung belajar kat Madinah

I: HUH??? Nak ikot.

A: Nak belajar pe?

I: Nak wat ibadat la.

A: Saya nak stay sana. =.=

I: Ouh..oke.. -terdiam jap-

A: Haha...lambat lagi. If jadi..i'll let u know.

I: SIGN OFF...

Hahaha...marah ke saya di dalam perbualan ni? Ouh..tidak tidak.

Saya suka apa yang akan terjadi. =)

Sila la membimbing saya yer. Jangan garang sangat. Haha

P/s: Ini bukan seperti dulu. It's Fresh :)

Tuju Lagu :)

Maen ni pulak lately. apakah? haha. takde pape. ^_^

P/s: Jiwangs....

Your Tribute...

I knew u gone. I lost all of u. 
But still...I still thinking that you are here. beside me..laughing with me. Asking the question with me. Sit and eat the meatballs in front of me. Make a joke to me. Buying me ice-cream..Drive me home safely. Shopping with me. Give me the pillow to hug when i'm sad. 

It's like..you never leave...

How can i should let you leave...when you appeared in my mind every morning i wake up..and just before i sleep..it's you i think about. People may say...I'm CRAZY...but..i didnt ask for this. Not once i want u to hurt me so deeply. 

U stay away from me. I figure out the reason why. Because u dont want me to stuck with you. I got it.

Dear u, teach me how i should forget all these things?

- Your musics that u suggested to me...and i kept playing it because ur musics suit mine?

- Your sweet part. Maybe u already stated that i'm not your choice..but why u kept my stuff with you? 

I dont know. I dont know why i can act like this when i'm with you. OR remember you.

I never forget you. Not even once. Even if i say i did...i just love the way i lie to myself. That's it. 

It doesn't matter i can't have you..because i dont hope or want it anymore. Just i remember this little boy that i always used to watch in class. The boy that write and lead the class...the boy-scout that so "chomel" when he shout out in class..and the boy that dance with another partner instead of me. HAHA. I just missed all of those little boy. 

-at least...those memories make me smile- :)

This is your tribute. If i find someone in future..i'll make sure i SHOW OFF to you. and make him PUNCH you hard at your bulgy stomach. haha.

you are..a GOING GOING GONE guy. Bakaa!!!!Sayonara!!!

P/s: I am Not sad because of you anymore. I promise i live my day BETTER without you :)

Hurts

Sometimes, i don't feel like i want to talk. OR speak my mind.

I rather keep it..secretly in my "plaster" heart. - abaikan my serabai English. As i'm trying to improve my not-good-a-bit English.

This morning..as i sit in Library with my lovely roomate, my senpai...listening to Adele album (21)...i read. I read my usual-visit-blog : Iluvislam.com...then..messing around with Pakcik Google. I found one blog. One of the wut-ever girls i ever met. Yes, i admit they are..really gorgeous & stylish..

but..let's think a bit..Why they can be like that?

1. Because their descendant is RICH. They have MONEY. TONS of it. and do they mentioned buy their stuff at boutique such as ZARA when there is SALE? just one word..DANG. You guys think after SALE kat butik cam ZARA tu..korang dapat beli long skirt dengan harga rm15? Nonsense la this one. HUH.

2. Their family is sporting enough.

3. Let them be.

I dont know why i felt annoyed reading their pages..like..wut the hell they are doing? how come they got so much money for that? They working their a** off so much? OverTime?...Crap!!

It's a bad thing to "buruk sangka" on these type of girls..but common girls..

when you are so damn happy chilling out with ur friends like that..shopping while "SALE" la kan..

why dont u donate ur cheap-money to us? For us to survive our life here? haha.

That is one thing i learnt this morning. Yeah..people can be so mean sometimes, can be very sensitive too, can be over-excited, can be annoying, can be..anything they want.

As for me. i choose neutral. I afraid to laugh and be happy too much..cause i scare in the next day, i'm "paying" for it (doing all the opposite things from yesterday) T_T

Move on to another thing...there is one problem. I think i am in the "Inception" world now. I mean it.. I'm a day-dreamer. While i walking-my-lazy-legs around the campus...i think i saw someone. i saw him. Oke..maybe it is IMPOSSIBLE ...but i did stop..and staring at him. LONG enough..

I wait till he turn to face me...and..there he is. He is the anonymous...haha. and..definitely different from him. haha..a bit old. but from behind..he did make me stop to stare at him. haha. stoooooopido me!

Did i miss him? I don't know. Maybe a part of me..still don't believe the truth..that he already move on..without me. He let me falling behind. Thinking & writing about this..already hurts my heart. (apatah lagi..nak senyum kan..)...Not long after that incident..i realise..i did walk...leave my minds behind..sampai terlepas LIBRARY...ouh..oke..that clumsy me. haha. Me is kuat berangan. and JUMPS between my dreams. Before tido, i always think what " i am" in another 5 years. Where i'm gonna be? With who? ermp...let Allah decide it.

The last thing i want to blabber this tuesday day is...

i'm getting sick watching people.

Can i?

My heart barely feel anything anymore.

I dont feel like doing anything.

I just wish..i can go back...be with my family..or go anywhere...being a backpackers (hey those GIRLS above, donate some money for me to travel to Japan INSTEAD. DANG!!)

 haha...apa lah yang dimerepekkan hari-hari selasa ni.

It's just my inside conscious mind that talking. My physical? Isn't working today. haha.

As for my song today: Set Fire to The Rain  by Adele :)

-  beautiful lyrics. I love her - 

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you're here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught, must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time
The last time, oh, oh!

Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn

P/s: Kita BAKAU je!!! haha.